Monday, June 1, 2009.

life is really so scary and cruel.

In just about 1 months' time, after Presentation (of which I'm eternally grateful for), they'll be gone. Literally, gone. Imagine, there may be a high chance I'll never see most of them for the next year or so, and I may not even see some of them throughout my entire life.

Our lives may not cross; pathways may not intersect.

And what do we have left with us? All just memories, fragments of what was in the PAST, gone, irretrievable and lost forever. People, so worthy of being friends, where will they be?

Will I recognise fellow Chamber mates in the year to come? If I see someone on the MRT in 2 years' time, can I still be able to know that we were once CCA mates, playing on stage in that hall, getting Gold with Honours together?

It's not easy at all, leaving and parting, knowing that in many cases everything's all but lost. Maybe a handful of friendships, but how long will it take before some of these friendships vanish? How long before they become acquaintances? How long before we stop communicating? How long before a friend becomes a stranger?

Friends become acquaintances, acquaintances become strangers.

As our life journey diverges, we break up, slowly but steadily, unless we put in A LOT of effort.

JC is painful; so much we lose! 12 years' worth of friendships, 12 years' worth of experiences, 12 years' worth of joy. Do we just let it die off so easily? Do we just let something special die and fade off, flickering away? Do we just let it be but an experience?

NO. I cannot accept that.

I'm scared! There's this very nice comfort zone, of friendships and bonds that were painstakingly built up from scratch, and there it is, ever-present in school. And once it comes, where will we be? Thrown into a completely new environment, without many familiar faces.

And now how?

I'm scared. It means so much, all of you guys. I cannot lose it.

Time is cruel.

Labels: CCA, friends, Life