Monday, June 29, 2009.

stressssssss.

just enjoy it lah, ignore how people think i guess.

Labels: Life

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Monday, June 22, 2009.

all it takes is something small.

and flashbacks, memories, experiences. they all go back, replaying in your head.

stabbing you hard. each of them.

that wound never healed. it won't.

and everytime it stabs on a fresh wound it hurts.

no one knows. no one can feel it.

/edit: thanks.

Labels: Life

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Friday, June 19, 2009.

what, what is the answer to the Unanswered Question?

as you search for the answer, you realise a lot of things.

even as it repeats itself, the eternal question of existence, you think a lot.

memory space.

a place to contemplate. to RE-MEM-BER.

and as you think, think about loss,

love? could it be the answer?

Labels: Life, Music

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Monday, June 15, 2009.

sometimes, what motivates you to give your best may come from different areas.

people's expectations really force you to give your best.

as i saw and felt for myself today.

surprising how ENTHUSIASTIC they got. really, even for orientation or anything i hardly felt that much spirit, drive, energy in everyone!

and honestly, how much they expected from this whole event really pushed me to give my all. they felt it i guess; i don't know HOW they really managed to have such high expectations, but indeed their enthusiasm is rubbing off me.

indeed, that's the power of enthusiasm. showing off the best in others?

Labels: Life

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epic.

DAMN epic.

something new at least. feels as if i'm a tour guide, finding people in Airport, bringing them around, intro-ing them to Singapore, taking the coach AND liaising with the driver (for an epic 10+ minutes), handling some of the hungry people, entertaining those hungry people, finding lost people, reporting to boss, handling parents (at the same time), etc.

nightmare.

but very fun though! although sleep-deprived and poor.

more crap to come.

Labels: Life

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Friday, June 12, 2009.

LESSON LEARNT:

do NOT EVER rush into a buffet with 35 minutes to spare. you'll walk out pregnant, seriously.

(or was it just me.)

but but it was overdue though! nice time there =D

Labels: friends, Life

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Wednesday, June 10, 2009.

someone, someone.

teach me.

how to be a good person.

how not to be filled with negative thoughts, how not to be controlled by emotions such as jealousy, selfishness etc.

how not to be full of oneself.

how to think of others 1st.

how to feel for others, how to make them happy and content.

how to be a good person.

i've got loads to learn ><

Labels: Life

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Wednesday, June 3, 2009.

i officially hate my tummy like crap.

since 6 pm last night you know!

ouch damnit my good good luck.

Labels: Life

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Monday, June 1, 2009.

life is really so scary and cruel.

In just about 1 months' time, after Presentation (of which I'm eternally grateful for), they'll be gone. Literally, gone. Imagine, there may be a high chance I'll never see most of them for the next year or so, and I may not even see some of them throughout my entire life.

Our lives may not cross; pathways may not intersect.

And what do we have left with us? All just memories, fragments of what was in the PAST, gone, irretrievable and lost forever. People, so worthy of being friends, where will they be?

Will I recognise fellow Chamber mates in the year to come? If I see someone on the MRT in 2 years' time, can I still be able to know that we were once CCA mates, playing on stage in that hall, getting Gold with Honours together?

It's not easy at all, leaving and parting, knowing that in many cases everything's all but lost. Maybe a handful of friendships, but how long will it take before some of these friendships vanish? How long before they become acquaintances? How long before we stop communicating? How long before a friend becomes a stranger?

Friends become acquaintances, acquaintances become strangers.

As our life journey diverges, we break up, slowly but steadily, unless we put in A LOT of effort.

JC is painful; so much we lose! 12 years' worth of friendships, 12 years' worth of experiences, 12 years' worth of joy. Do we just let it die off so easily? Do we just let something special die and fade off, flickering away? Do we just let it be but an experience?

NO. I cannot accept that.

I'm scared! There's this very nice comfort zone, of friendships and bonds that were painstakingly built up from scratch, and there it is, ever-present in school. And once it comes, where will we be? Thrown into a completely new environment, without many familiar faces.

And now how?

I'm scared. It means so much, all of you guys. I cannot lose it.

Time is cruel.

Labels: CCA, friends, Life

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