Thursday, February 5, 2009.

i know it's just wrong to do an emo post now but this, after all, is a web-log(aka web diary), and i AM entitled to my opinions provided it doesn't get me into trouble.

yeah i guess it's something everyone has to go through.

it hurts leaving people.

a number of my blog posts these few months revolved around my (soon-to-be) former class. it is agony, agony indeed to think about how the past will never be the present.

and i guess it will happen soon.

o'tiero (I STILL SUSPECT IT ISN'T SPANISH.) has been really great, but the fear in everyone is what happens AFTER that. whether our og will stand together and be great friends despite the passing of time or disintegrate and be a small fragment of our life, never to be together and all forgotten, we will see.

i don't wish for the latter. i want to meet my og and talk to them, chit-chat and go for outings often. i want to have parties with them. i don't want orientation to just be about assimilating into merely the school compound, but also mixing with people and forging everlasting bonds.

but ever so often the latter occurs. it's only a matter of time when another group of people come into your life. classmates, ccamates, juniors and seniors, soon-to-be ns platoonmates...inevitably you'll have to face the same situation again and over again.

that's why i changed my msn nick and pm.

in the end you can't be best friends with everyone you ever met in this world. no one will have that much time. so some will stay while some will go. former best friends will become nothing but acquaintances, which happens ever so often.

so anticipate it. know when you're going to part, for then if you know that it won't last long you can make preparations for it.

it's just like how morrie described dying in "Tuesdays with Morrie". he prepared mock funerals for himself, not celebrating death, but life itself. he taught himself to accept death and not shudder at the sight of it, even when confronted with Lou Gehrig's disease.

most importantly, he made use of every single second he had left wisely.

that's just exactly what we should do. inevitably groups of friends will break up into oblivion, but before you know that the break-up will occur why not do your best? make use of every single second you have left before the bonds start loosening.

and that's why i'll promise i'll go crazy with my og tomorrow.

Labels: friends, Life