Saturday, August 15, 2009.

was supposed to post this yesterday (i.e. i thought of writing about this yesterday) but some stupid stomach pain literally disabled me so yeah today then. better now though, just that yesterday night was horrid.

you know, as students you learn about stuff right? like say, in gp you discuss about ethics and morals got to do with science, and then you talk about how policies are screwed up and stuff right?

it's purely in an academic frame of mind. so when you think about it it's nothing much to you, it evokes no form of feeling whatsoever. in short it is nonfeeling - you completely detach yourself from your emotions when you think about academia.

but when it presents itself to you in a completely different form, you see how different everything becomes.

such as this. in econs you learn about firms and costs. and then you are told, that profit maximization occurs when total revenue - total costs is largest, and then you are taught cost-cutting measures (all in econ. jargon) that firms undertake.

and all these seem natural to you. you don't bother about the implications.

until it hits closer to home.

got quite a scare yesterday during dinner; i consider yesterday a very lucky day (not for myself), because if yesterday had taken the standard route (the expected outcome i mean), i'd be crying now. i mean, suddenly i'd be much worse off, and i wouldn't know how to survive (literally!) a few months down the road.

and academically, it just feels as if it's a natural thing - when you read of recessions you don't feel anything do you?

it must hit closer home for anyone to even feel it.

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