Sunday, April 5, 2009.

it's unusual that i post twice in a day, let alone twice in 2 hours.

but i really need to get this out.

you know, i really suddenly believe a lot in personality profiles.

a long time ago I took DISC, and i was an IDC. A strong I in fact.

and it said there, on the book, that an I fears rejection the most.

I didn't really think it through much. I just merely agreed, thinking that it might be right.

and i realised, just now, that that might TRULY be my biggest fear.

there is probably a reason why I was feeling scared a few weeks ago, even if I did not openly display it. being rejected, not only from social circles but from every part of life, is INDEED my greatest fear.

although i don't show it, i realised that it haunts me too much. my heartbeat rushes high when i sense a possible rejection. i cannot sleep well. i cannot walk properly. sometimes, i cannot even see or hear properly.

i guess i need to tackle it before this fear overcomes me.

Labels: Life