Friday, November 7, 2008.

grad ceremony was nothing much to me, srsly.

after grad ceremony, we went to camwhore with our subject teachers, and i guess as much as we hate the work they give us and demand from us, we missing them and them missing us - it's mutual. many of our teachers miss our class (lol CHINESE xD) and i feel sad having to part with the teachers.

then after that we went to watch quantum of solace (my 1st movie in n months, where n>4). an AMAZING number of people turned up - 17 people!

then later about 13 people squeezed onto the bus and went towards patrick's house to spam mahjong and/or bridge/risk.

and then was the highlight of the day (or so i thought) - the dinner, where we just poured out a lot of feelings for this class. it's magical that 2 years can do so much to a class so diverse (at the start) and so unique. how is it that we can "click" together, i really don't know, but there's something we have that makes our class so special.

and after that benyong and junsheng coerced me into going to yishun. obviously i knew it would be faster to take mrt home from ang mo kio, but those 2 evil people made me go all the way to yishun x(

luckily that emo feeling hasn't struck me yet. i suspect it's coming, at least within the next 2-3 days.

that horrendous feeling i felt when i attended the rise bbq '08. that whole night i just broke down for about 2 hours.

knowing you are leaving something behind, knowing that all these things you do together will but remain non-existant, only to be remembered in the mind, knowing that all has been but a dream and will never ever occur again, that scares me.

fear is an emotional response to a threat or danger. so why do i fear leaving 4B '08?

it is not a danger to leave a class for another class (provided the other class does not have sledgehammers), and it is not a threat at all. but i miss this class so much, for everything you guys have done (i know i haven't done much) that i fear that these memories of such a wonderful time spent will be forgotten.

i fear that next time, when i try to think of RI i forget that i was in 4B '08. i fear that next time, when i walk down a street and see one ex-classmate, we fail to recognise each other. i fear that next time, these friendships and bonds built up in this class within the short timespan of 2 years will be broken.

that would seriously hurt me very much.

as much as 4B is a class, 4B is a group of 33 people, some more imba than others even though all people are created equal. these 32 other people have given me just so much that it's impossible for me to imagine that i was never in this class. all the fond memories of our class, as 33 and as 1, together in various events and activities (OBS, 3rdLang, concerts, Interclass events, BBQ, EOYs2008, classchalet2008 and all other activities we have done together as a class or part thereof).

it's just too much for me to say it out now, for everytime i want to say it out loud i feel the pain in me, that pain of giving up something i truly loved.

人有悲欢离合，
月有阴晴圆缺，
此事古难全。
但愿人长久，
千里共婵娟。

may we stay as a class forever in spirit. may we forever remember these 2 years, these 2 glorious years of fun and wonder. may we keep in our hearts the wonderful class of 4B'2008.

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